Poetry
The follow
are samples of some of my poetry. I am very much into earth-based things
because of my cultural heritage, and I’m sure you’ll note how it reflects in
some of the following. I am also a musician, so many of these were written with
a melody or rhythm going through my head. And then others … were written for
the people I love most in this life. I hope you enjoy my writing. Feel free to
e-mail me any comments or thoughts at hedanicree@gmail.com.
All work is
the property of H. Danielle Crabtree.
Grace
Through my eyes I see but grace
The changing world; the changing face
Will we fall or shall we rise?
Questions lead to compromise
Lead me to a place of peace
Save me from this misery
Lift me up, guide my way
Keep me safe for one more day
Answers come, I beg for thee
Deep inside I'll ne'er be free
Free to choose; free to fly
To take a chance on this thing called life
What becomes of those who fall?
Left behind, forgotten by all
Left to fend; forever alone
Except by those who follow you home
Home in heart, space and time
Time for peace within my mind
Traveling through this world alone
With one grace to call my own
For
Joshua
Void
I have been
out of touch from reality and life
Troubled by thoughts within my own mind
I cannot change the course that's been
Only grieve for things what might have been
Eighteen years, you'd be today
Eighteen years since you went away
Eighteen years since you stole my heart
Eighteen years since it broke apart
You haunt my dreams in this desert-like place
Devoid of life, forgotten by grace
There is no relief from the pain I feel
There is no peace from what cannot be stilled
You've been gone so long but I still remember all
Your smile, your eyes, your strength and warmth
Your life feels like a glimpse in time
A treasured memory that's defined my life
My love for you shall never die
Forever holding 'til the end of time
Until I find the place we will meet
In that strange journey in endless sleep
~~~
A little explanation: I wrote this for my
little brother on what would have been his 18th birthday. I think anyone who
has lost someone they loved can understand the emptiness death brings to the
living — Dani
The Call
In the wind
I hear your call
It stills my breath; I cannot breathe
When will I see your loving face?
Those tired eyes that never change
I'm left with only longing
Different paths; I cannot change
Through immortal time and space
Whisper sweetly in my ear
I long to know you are near
Not far behind me
I turn around, but you are gone
A distant memory; so long
I wish that I could hold your hand
Keep you close in this strange land
But it's too late, my darling
But in the wind I hear that call
It stills my breath; I cannot breathe
You've changed my world; you changed heart
Lead me to this place apart
And with faith I keep walking
The Journey
Don't judge
by what you see
There is so much more to me
I have walked the high road
And traveled the low
On the long journey to the sea
Now I stand upon the edge
Trying to find my way down
I've hoped; I've prayed
I've lost my way
But I know I can be found
Somewhere across the sea
Where people don't know me
My sins, all gone
Washed away are fears
Of the things I used to be
So don't judge me
There is so much more to see
I always find my way
To a better day
To a place I can be free
Published
2008 in LBCC’s
I've been doing a lot of reading lately to help
settle my mind at night (swing shifter/insomniac and all). Recently, I was
reading the work of someone I believe is a very talented writer and her portrayal
of a character in one of her stories — a portrayal that has given the character
so much life and humanity. The thing about this character though is that she
lives a tragic life, never feels wanted, believes that the world is hopeless.
This, of course, got me thinking about imperfect things, imperfect people and
this imperfect world, and how truly 'perfect' it can be if we have a little
faith and show a little love.
So, this one is for ‘Sassybratt’ for her
beautiful writing that made me think, and for Jean, who always knows just what
to say.
~~~
Lucky One
Though I close my eyes,
I can't find sleep;
Drowning in tears,
I'm in too deep;
Imperfect thing,
In an imperfect world;
Aren't I the lucky one?
If I had one wish,
I'd leave this place;
Escape these memories,
That time won't erase;
Dark deeds haunt me,
Wear against the grain;
Aren't I the lucky one?
Falling on my knees
I can only pray;
For the comforting of his arms,
For his gentle embrace;
Like a lost, lonely child,
He guides me to rest;
I am the lucky one.
I find it
amazing how much people can change. I wrote this just last year, in the midst
of my frustrations of not moving on, and pursing the things I dreamed about.
When I read this, it reminds me of where I have been, the choices I have made since
writing this, and the place I am now. I can happily say now that my 'painted
scenes' are no longer to hide my unhappiness, but instead found in the desert
landscape of the American Southwest.
~~~
Painted Scenes
I've always
sought to live in the shadows
To hide my dreams behind painted scenes
And cast away all that gives me trouble
As I feel unworthy to follow my dreams
Whispers
from the darkness guide my hand
Taking me places I cannot understand
What fate awaits the one who falls?
A trip and stumble before resenting all
So much
weight lies upon my back
Holding me down and I don’t fight back
One more reason, an excuse not to try
To become myself instead of these lies
These lies
that lay upon my face
Like paint it hides my inner place
To dark to dwell, but still I hide
Afraid to find my place in life
Lead Me Home
Lead me
there
Take me to the place beyond
Call me home
Just don't leave 'til the dawn
The night is dark
And the shadows dance around
Caging me
By the candlelight I've found
I will need you
To guide me through
This night
Lead me home
Lead me there
Protect me from this storm
Shield my life
Pick me up when I am torn
The night is dark
And the shadows dance around
I'm afraid
That my soul will be undone
I will need you
To guide me through
This night
Lead me home
Note: I
wrote the following two in this 'chapter' for my older brother, David. He, and
Joshua, my younger brother, mean the world to me. When I was a little girl,
David was my hero. (I don't think I've ever told him that). I use to follow him
everywhere, and always had to be two steps behind him. I loved playing sports,
as long as it was with him; watching him play; and thus I blame him for my
'tomboy', rough-and-tumble personality. Over the years, though, we grew apart
because of varying factors, and two years ago, my mother and I came close to
losing him as well. I wrote this then, when my 'superhero' had long since
fallen from grace. I've come to understand that no family is perfect ... but
doesn't mean I don't love mine any less.
~~~
For
David
Change
Change
isn't easy
It's the hardest thing to do
No matter the season
Change is good for you
But the things that need changing
Seldom follow through
And you find the old road
The one hurting you
You destroy the lives around you
Hurt the people you love
You teach your children values
In a cycle that should end in love
But faith alone can't help you
A choice must be made
To leave this crazy place
And find your way to grace
There is no point in living
But to live for those you love
To change this world for the better
Instead of causing harm to all
Lift your eyes from darkness
And find your way home
Because our love alone can't save you
The choice to change is yours
***
Untitled
I feel the
shadows closing in
Counting the days 'til fall
From the edge of grace
To the dark space
To the hell within us all
I see the darkness in your eyes
It scares me more and more
Void of life
In a forgotten place
In a soul that's too far gone
Blame this
one on cold medicine…
~~~
Forget you, Fate!
The random
things that come to me
When I'm in the state of dream
To wake, to loose this state of mind
This place in time l call mine
By night I am the keeper of dreams
Making use of forgotten schemes
Trying my hand at many things
Winning battles with only the queen
Lost in thought I'll never find
A niche, a place to call mine
but dreams come to those who wait
So I'll keep on dreaming
Forget you, Fate
What can I
say, I love life's journeys.
~~~
The
Road Less Traveled
The road less traveled
The road I'm on
Right choice, right way
I guess I'll see at the end of the day
Shattered dreams
I still go on
No need to live
In the places I come from
Stumble, fall
I'll never break
I'll never loose
I'll always pray
This is my way
My journey to the end
The past never forgotten
But in this moment I'm strong
Because, the road less traveled
The road I'm on
My journey through life
I'll never walk alone
See
I cannot
see
For I am blind
To all you say and do
A part of me
Wants to say goodbye
But I can't help loving you
Why am I lost
Yet never found
Hiding behind my own fear
I wish to know
Should I let go
And leave all that I hold dear
What would you say
If you knew my mind
The thoughts that often dwell
Would you ease my fears
Wipe away the tears
Or leave me to my hell
I hate each day
Because you walk away
Without hearing the words I say
So I'll stand alone
Without my home
Trying to brave each day
Explanation for this one: I love Scifi/Fantasy. Enough
said.
~~~
Lady Watcher
When the
night is quiet and still
The Lady Watcher then appears
She travels the world
On a breath of wind
Protecting the children that lay within
In the
place between dream and wake
Is where her spirit lives
A guardian of innocence
A huntress of evil
She protects all she can
She hears the whispers
The prayers for peace
From the mortals she protects
Always moving to keep ahead
Of the discourage, despair and loss
Her fight
is eternal
Through the folds of time
But never will she cease
'Til the world is forever at peace
Time
I hold my
breath
and wonder
how much longer I will wait
will I die in this place
or will I find an escape
The places I've been to
Imprint memories on my soul
each moment I keep waiting
Is another day unbold
I keep holding on
Waiting for that breath to come
To be free of myself
And what keeps me holding on
We all live life waiting
For one moment to shine
But I just can't find the time
Each night I think back
Wonder what I'm doing with my life
Will I wait one more day
Will I take a chance and die
I've seen things that scare me
And I fear the things unknown
But I can't help wishing
For another day to be bold
I keep holding on
Waiting for my chance to come
to be free of myself
And what keeps me holding on
We all live life waiting
For one moment to shine
But I just can't find the time
To You
To you, my
queen, my heart, I give.
To grace and beauty, a servant, I shall live.
For in your eyes, the stars shine.
Guiding me home in the depths of night.
You work dark magic; I'm under your spell.
And I shall worship you in the night,
Until the sounding of the bell.
Dancer
in the Dark
We two are dancers in the dark,
Under the leaves so green.
The white-washed moon in the cool of spring,
Bathing the earth in languid blue.
The sounds of creatures high in the trees,
Of creatures nestled below.
To sit in the dark,
And drink in the stars,
And watch the world spin slow.
We two are dancers in the dark,
Lost in a world so cold.
(Yes this is
the poem in S.O.S.)